Feels Wonderful Today...

Yesterday i had a follow up appointment with my surgeon, Doctor Dellinger. He's chief of surgery at the University of Washington Medical Center and the surgeon who performed my gastric bypass roux-en-y open surgery on January 24 2003. Doctor Dellinger is a very good doctor. His bedside manner is excellent and how he treats his patients is wonderful. i always feel "okay" when i'm around him i don't feel bad. i always get worried about seeing him especially if i've gained weight. But he has never gotten upset or disappointed with me, something i'm so used to seeing in faces and knowing inside myself. But *smiles... Like the song i'm listening too says "it's all bout you, it's not about me" i know inside of myself i need to work on my issues for myself not for anyone else. Yesterday Doctor Dellinger told me "This is not going to be an easy journey, it's not going to happen over night. You have had the surgery and have come along way from when i first met you. Now you have some decisions to make. Decisions that no one else can make for you.I know you can do this. You are very intelligent, young and determined." i always leave Doctor Dellingers office feeling wonderful about myself. Yesterday was a first for me too in such a long long time. i made arrangements for transportation to my appointment. My Mom has always made my stepdad take time off from work to take me to my appointments. But he's in Maryland for 3 weeks on business and doesn't come back home till Friday. i had a nice driver, i can't remember his name, but we had some nice conversations. His wife is a dispatcher. i laughed when he said that job fits her perfectly because she is always telling him what to do anyway" *giggles and winks - He said to me "you know how that is" i just laughed.

This morning i received a nice phone call from my counselor. She wanted to follow up with me and to see how i'm doing. She was very pleased that i kept my appointment. And told me that i need to stop thinking so much about things and just do it. She feels i have the cognitive side of things down and told me her job is to work on my behavior. Which i told her is something i've felt i needed to do too.

Over all this day is starting out good.